It's been a long time since I last posted. I have been working hard and very tired. Me and my husband both work full time, we were a host home provider for an adult with special needs for the last eight years and we have two kids. Life just gets busy and its hard juggling it all. The thing that often made it the hardest, was my physical and mental health. I deal with a lot of anxiety, depression and PTSD. I also struggle with chronic fatigue and pain that the doctors are trying to figure out. I know a lot of it also comes from the anxiety and things. I have however started to know my limits and I cut back at work and changed to PRN staff, after a few months of being on intermittent FMLA. I often struggle with feeling stuck, even though I see the life I want to create. As I've heard so brilliantly expressed "I see the ideal and then deal with the real." I have ADHD which doesn't help my executive functioning skills on making things happen the way that I want to. But I still hold onto the ideals and the visions of my life I want to have. Part of that vision is being able to share what helps me through this process, what has helped me in the past, with all of you. In case it might help someone. I'll be posting more often now and we can learn together how we can navigate, share and keep the healing going from our generation to the next.